I told my other friends who I liked. He showed up at lunch again. I made sure non of my friends walked near him this time. Near the end we shared an awkward stare. It was horrifying AF. When I was leaving he was literally 4 feet away from each other and I was like, please don’t come over and talk to me. He didn’t, thank god, but we shared another awkward stare. In my head I was just like, kill me now. I’m pretty sure I’m in the friend zone though.
I’m in trouble according to Maddie.
My crush is kind of my friend which worries me because um, friend zone. We eat separate lunch periods and yesterday I saw him at my lunch period. I told my friends that I saw him and the whole lunch they tried to tell him that I liked. One of my friends successfully got the words, “She wants you.” out as he walked by. Afterwards, I squeezed her orange slice all over her tray. I had to cover their mouths so they didn’t tell. He finally left and I was relieved. I tried to tell my other friends a little while later but as I was about to say the words my crush, I noticed him a few feet away from me and shut up. Why does life suck?
I was in front of three judgmental judges, which makes sense. I took a nervous gulp and started singing and dancing. I was auditioning for Broadway’s show, Aladdin. The music played and I sang,
“A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I’m way up here, it’s crystal clear
That now I’m in a whole new world with you,”
They weren’t amused, there faces didn’t move through out the whole song. They cut me off before I could continue and told me they would be in touch. I got my stuff off the ground when the one and only Kristen Chenoweth. She was also auditioning for Jasmine and the judges absolutely loved her. I swore I was cursed.
It had been a month since I auditioned and no call from them. I went through the stages of no calls. First there was depression, anger, confusion, and acceptance. I had been staring at my phone nonstop for three hours thinking I might miss a call.
I was talking to my roommate, Lilah, who was worried about my well being when my phone rang. I looked at my phone and realized it was the musical. I freaked out and asked Lilah what I should do. She answered, “Well answer it dummy!” I swiped and spoke to the person on the line. The call finished and Lilah asked what they said. The answer was that I got a callback and only had two other people to go against.
Six months later it was opening night and the room was abuzz. I sat in the front row of the auditorium. I didn’t get the part, but I decided to see what could have been. The lights dimmed and the room went radio silent. The curtains opened and the show commenced.
The show finished and Kristen was brilliant. I couldn’t blame the director for picking her. It was for the better of the show. I was allowed backstage afterwards for almost getting the job. I accidentally bumped into Kristen and I apologized profusely. She recognized me and said I had one of the best voices she had ever heard. I asked her where she heard me and she said the director showed her my audition video for pointers and that if I was more famous, I would have gotten the job. Ever since, Kristen and I have been friends and have defended each other on different topics. Auditioning for Aladdin was the best decision of my life. Ever since I have starred in many A list movies and am a household name. If I had never met Kristen I never would have gained my confidence back. We sang duets together and share a bond that is unbreakable.
The *********** is coming up and I think ****** forgot. I’m pretty sure he forgot all together. He probably isn’t going. I hope he doesn’t because if he does I have to show my friend who he is. I haven’t posted publicly in a while because most of it is personal. I don’t think he likes me anymore is friendly to everyone and doesn’t wait for my reaction anymore, and if he does I don’t notice it enough. He is still kind of obsessed with his hair and is still super funny. My old crush, **** , I now can’t remember his face for a while.
I invited this guy to ************************** (hidden so you don’t figure out who he is). My friend said she told some other guy named the name of the guy that I liked him. He responded, “Who?”. Now there is a guy who thinks I like him but I like another guy that has his name. Why life? S he tried to tell someone and I would die if he found out and didn’t feel the same way. We sit next to each other in ********** class. It would be so awkward if he knew.
Today I had to go to my talent show rehearsal and learn a whole new song. My duet partner singing had to go to another club thing and I had to just awkwardly watch and learn the words. One hour after I get home from rehearsal i had to go back to school for the winter dance. This task was almost impossible because I was STARVING! I got to school 10 minutes late but the place was full of all my friends. The dance was full of repeated songs but it was fun.