Not So Secret

Not So Secret

I told my other friends who I liked. He showed up at lunch again. I made sure non of my friends walked near him this time. Near the end we shared an awkward stare. It was horrifying AF. When I was leaving he was literally 4 feet away from each other and I was like, please don’t come over and talk to me. He didn’t, thank god, but we shared another awkward stare. In my head I was just like, kill me now. I’m pretty sure I’m in the friend zone though.

I’m in trouble according to Maddie.

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My Friends : The Tellers of Secrets

My Friends : The Tellers of Secrets

My crush is kind of my friend which worries me because um, friend zone. We eat separate lunch periods and yesterday I saw him at my lunch period. I told my friends that I saw him and the whole lunch they tried to tell him that I liked. One of my friends successfully got the words, “She wants you.” out as he walked by. Afterwards, I squeezed her orange slice all over her tray. I had to cover their mouths so they didn’t tell. He finally left and I was relieved. I tried to tell my other friends a little while later but as I was about to say the words my crush, I noticed him a few feet away from me and shut up. Why does life suck?

You Got Talent?

You Got Talent?

I was in front of three judgmental judges, which makes sense. I took a nervous gulp and started singing and dancing. I was auditioning for Broadway’s show, Aladdin. The music played and I sang,

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I’m way up here, it’s crystal clear
That now I’m in a whole new world with you,”

They weren’t amused, there faces didn’t move through out the whole song. They cut me off before I could continue and told me they would be in touch. I got my stuff off the ground when the one and only Kristen Chenoweth. She was also auditioning for Jasmine and the judges absolutely loved her. I swore I was cursed.

It had been a month since I auditioned and no call from them. I went through the stages of no calls. First there was depression, anger, confusion, and acceptance. I had been staring at my phone nonstop for three hours thinking I might miss a call.

I was talking to my roommate, Lilah, who was worried about my well being  when my phone rang. I looked at my phone and realized it was the musical. I freaked out and asked  Lilah what I should do. She answered, “Well answer it dummy!” I swiped and spoke to the person on the line. The call finished and Lilah asked what they said. The answer was that I got a callback and only had two other people to go against.

Six months later it was opening night and the room was abuzz. I sat in the front row of the auditorium. I didn’t get the part, but I decided to see what could have been. The lights dimmed and the room went radio silent. The curtains opened and the show commenced.

The show finished and Kristen was brilliant. I couldn’t blame the director for picking her. It was for the better of the show. I was allowed backstage afterwards for almost getting the job. I accidentally bumped into Kristen and I apologized profusely. She recognized me and said I had one of  the best voices she had ever heard. I asked her where she heard me and she said the director showed her my audition video for pointers and that if I was more famous, I would have gotten the job. Ever since, Kristen and I have been friends and have defended each other on different topics. Auditioning for Aladdin was the best decision of my life. Ever since I have starred in many A list movies and am a household name. If I had never met Kristen I never would have gained my confidence back. We sang duets together and share a bond that is unbreakable.

He Forgot?

He Forgot?

The *********** is coming up and I think ****** forgot. I’m pretty sure he forgot all together. He probably isn’t going. I hope he doesn’t because if he does I have to show my friend who he is. I haven’t posted publicly in a while because most of it is personal. I don’t think he likes me anymore is friendly to everyone and doesn’t wait for my reaction anymore, and if he does I don’t notice it enough. He is still kind of obsessed with his hair and is still super funny. My old crush, **** , I now can’t remember his face for a while.

I Invited Him

I Invited Him

I invited this guy to ************************** (hidden so you don’t figure out who he is). My friend said she told some other guy named the name of the guy that I liked him. He responded, “Who?”. Now there is a guy who thinks I like him but I like another guy that has his name. Why life? S he tried to tell someone and I would die if he found out and didn’t feel the same way. We sit next to each other in ********** class. It would be so awkward if he knew.

Busy Bee

Busy Bee

Today I had to go to my talent show rehearsal and learn a whole new song.  My duet partner singing had to go to another club thing and I had to just awkwardly watch and learn the words. One hour after I get home from rehearsal i had to go back to school for the winter dance. This task was almost impossible because I was STARVING! I got to school 10 minutes late but the place was full of all my friends. The dance was full of repeated songs but it was fun.